hmpf

theres not much to be said or to feel. i feel lost, i feel like i wanna get away or just be gone period. no motivation to do anything, no inspiration. i shouldnt feel this way. as long as people r happy i should be happy too right? what can i do? what can i say? shall i revert back to drinking? should i revert back to blocking people out of my life? do i need alone time? i think i may... i really dont know what i can do at this point but do that. only answer whenever i feel like it and just be a bum or i can work out, do better and play basketball for the summer... i think i may just do that, be better. basketball day tomorrow so im kinda happy about that. lets hope i take shit out on the court.

as of now... fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you... oh and fuck you. now fuck off....

hmm

i hate seeing him, such a typical flip... gtfo. and i guess back to step 1. closed down those doors pretty quick, haha kinda glad and upset in a way. but what can i do... but to move forward :P

ay

ugh.. why'd i take a look at those pics. i was doing so well without her, not seeing her... i just think her friends are so shady like carl and them. u want it to be close friends, ok thats fine. damn it. i gotta let it go.... think LAkers... think LAkers... KOBE!!! :D ok good...

the only thing that keeps happy is being out with friends, playing basketball ofcourse or watching the LAkers or knowing the LAkers are champions... weeeee :D

well... anyways, peace... hope ur doing well and ur happy, u deserve it