first blog of the year -_-

wow... reading what you write on other people's status... was i really just a blur? you had to wait 5 years to find out he was the one... and you said all the things you said to me. and you said you were the real one..pff. i can do the same thing you're doing, "THOSE 10 MONTHS WAS A WASTE OF MY TIME" .. how do you feel now? before you write something, consider the other person's feelings. isnt that what you taught me? cause hell, you taught me a lot and i didnt do one shit to you? and to think i wanted to end in better terms, i dont think so anymore. you're wack, fake and uh... whatever else you wanna be.

was it worth it

i heard what was said on your blog... about you being with vaughn for "years"... so what was us? just time away from him? were feelings even real? dont tell me shit anymore cause i dont know if i believe you anymore. was my time worth it? if it made you grow then im glad. but was i just someone to make you realize vaughn was the one? i told you to go back. i didnt know you well enough before and i still dont know if i know you well enough now. would you really have gone back to him if you wanted to? cause you did in the end. it bugs me that you said something like that cause im not some piece of trash or an experiment... some person to make someone realize im not the one. its happened with jenn and its happened with you. i have so much respect for the friends you introduced me to cause now they understand what im going through or what i went through. it sucks... just so you know.... it fuckin hurts more than anything you have done to me. dont compare cause i had 10 whole months of lies and deceit. dont you dare compare....

better late than never

today i saw an episode of one tree hill and it involved a flashback of payton and julius dating. julius saw that payton was reading her ex luca's book all the time. something kept her with him. julius saw this and ended it as soon as he saw the book in her bag when they were about to leave for vacation.

this is similar to my situation... thing is julius saw this first before i did. i saw it after things have ended, he ended it because he saw it. so many people have told me it wasnt fair for me but no one was willing to tell me at the time. i had to figure it out myself. im done, im doing this for myself...